no fear, no worry. If you accept the law of attraction then a positive mindset is a must. The negativity you pay attention to promotes that negativity.When the sun goes down do you morn the day or exult in the moonlight? I dont know if any one can really give you "answers", they really are within you. I'm sure there will come "that spark" for you, I'm also sure that being polluted by the fear mongering of Christianity hasnt helped your cause but how about trying some positive neuro linguistic programming. Whenever you catch yourself thinking negatively, turn it around and think something positive. Over time thinking positive becomes easier as the hardwiring in your brain changes over time to become unable to think negatively.
2012 for me means nothing of itself. I have always thought that mankind had it wrong, was conducting life not only counterproductively but counter intuitively, against nature, against eachother.There is a better way to live. cant you feel it. When I came across this site it was so heart warming as there are other people out there who thiink how I do. Not only others but millions of others, the groundswell who are actually changing the world. For me we are not enetering a time of some kind of rapturous shenanigans but for the raising of consciousness of all of humanity, the golden age. I just live like it has already happened and keep on grinning. You really need a high ambiguity tolerance to be alive today. What a magic time. What a fraught time!!